why all good things come to the end?

2009-04-05T02:48:00.001+08:00

i want to move out cus i need to grow up..

2009-03-12T11:40:00.002+08:00

I could stay awake, just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping…while you far away and dreaming.
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.
I could stay lost in this moment forever.
Every moment I spend with you is a moment I treasure

Don’t wanna close my eyes; don’t wanna fall asleep…
‘Cause I miss you baby, and I don’t want to miss a thing…
‘Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do, I’ll still miss you baby,
And I don’t want to miss a thing.

Lying close to you, feeling you’re heart beating…
And I’m wondering what you’re dreaming,
Wondering if it’s me you’re seeing.
Then I kissed your eyes and thank God we’re together.
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever…
Forever and ever..

Don’t wanna close my eyes, don’t wanna fall asleep…
‘Cause I miss you baby, and I don’t want to miss a thing…
‘Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do, I’ll still miss you baby,
And I don’t want to miss a thing.

And I don’t wanna miss one smile…
I don’t wanna miss one kiss…
I just wanna be right here with you, just like this…
I just wanna hold you close…
Feel your heart so close too mine.
And just wanna stay in this moment, for all the rest of time..

Don’t wanna close my eyes, don’t wanna fall asleep…
‘Cause I miss you baby, and I don’t want to miss a thing…
‘Cause even when I dream of you,
The sweetest dream will never do, I’ll still miss you baby,
And I don’t want to miss a thing..

2009-03-12T11:15:00.002+08:00

i went to meet the boys yesterday in the afternoon..
and we spent the whole crazy time together..
we were having mini concert at cash studio..
was busy laughing at the things they did..
they songs that they sang for me..
om and andreas are good..
tired of singing,we went to eat and headed to hendry's house..
what did we play there??
they thought me and dephola poker game..
interesting game..
you have to be smart in this game..
play with ur heart nt with ur pride..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz......
back to work soon after a long holiday..
fred, we can only be friends alright..
now or even in the future..
just be one of my good friends that they make me smile..

pictures painted with love:D

2009-03-11T11:06:00.019+08:00

i don't need too many gfs,i only need all of you..

best moment that we had..

bimbs in the house,make some noiiseeee..

inseparable of us..

you're my closest friend who loves to torture me..

whore,u are real whore.i swan to take pict of u..

dms,i'll never forget that you are good..

my beautiful lady.happy birthday babe..

be happy just like us..

god,i wun ask much from you..
i'll only ask for one thing..
let what i have now stay with me throughout my entire life which is this bunch of awesome friends..
happy birthday babe..

2009-03-11T00:38:00.002+08:00

i have so much to blog today..
outing was so fun today..
lots of funny hot stuffs happened..
we went to cafe delmar to chill cus sentosa was just too hot for the hotties.lol..
anw,tell all of u what happened..
i swear i have never seen someone who will get drunk in the hot bright day and sober in the evening.LOL..
i didn't expect that i actually saw my friend,yes this whore(GERALD GOH)
got drunk in e day..
if i were the waitress i would have slapped him for calling me 'thanks whore'LOL..
he thought that was me and am..
had a hard time taking care of him..
went to pet's shop and saw some puppies that i love to have..
now i felt appreciated by stupid yanto..
u love to bully me right,said that i am ugly and stuffs..
now when i say i wanna be air stewardess then u feel my existence is actually quite important huh to..
now then ask me not to be?haha..
how now??
give me some of ur dad's shares lar.jkjk..
i need to earn lots of money my dear friend..
hopefully i can make it..
if i am rejected then i will join RMIT with you then..
sometimes life just left with no choice..
cus you want to make people around you happy..
mum,i will make you happy one day..
wait for 6 yrs from now on..
i will build a big house for you.hehe..

2009-03-10T02:02:00.002+08:00

was browsing and looking at my photo albums..
found these two adorable nephews..
i miss them so much..
they are super naughty at times,no most of time..
till e fierce uncle has to shout at them then they will sit still.hahaha..
what a memorable memories of those days with them..
boy boy still remember jiejie??
elvin definitely will not cus e last time i saw him he didn't want me to carry him anymore:(
did u all bully mama??
stop making mama shout ok..
boys jiejie miss all of u so much know..
jiejie love elvin and edison so much..

marley and me

2009-03-10T00:08:00.004+08:00

i went to catch a movie with topin after a long time..
i missed so many good movies for e past 3 weeks..
what did we watch??
good movie i can say..
marley and me..
as usual being a soft emo kid,i cried cus marley is dying..
watch that show and u will feel to have one as well..
will i be a good mummy for a puppy??
i want to have one as well..
but a small one who doesn't bark much..
anyone has that kind of puppy??
tmr is sentosa..
here we come..
holidays is so fun..
but soon i will get back to work..
and soon i will quit..
ppl intro me new job if u have..
finally we are talking,we will meet up soon..
meet me before i get to busy with work alright..
anw i cut my hair at wisma..
i am bored that's why i cut.hehe..
wanted to cut it short but cinta disagreed..

last night was a damn fun night..

2009-03-08T14:43:00.012+08:00

this was what we called real party..
everyone was gone like nobodys business..
i got bruises all over me.shitt...
i got cvt cus i broke e glass..
i am tired of drinking but party doesn't work without boozes man..
happy birthday cinta..

2009-03-06T23:23:00.002+08:00

shit..
i am still studying..
super tired after marketing paper..
was badly done,i really hope i will pass..
doing paper is alright but doing the project is definitely nonono..
counting down to tmr 5.15 pm..
exams will end by then.yesssssssssss.............
hopefully everything goes fine tmr so that i can party peacefully at night..
people give me your blessings..
tell me that i can do it..
have a good saturday night everyone..
see all of you at gotham penthouse..
exams end tmr,u deserve a good time out there..
so let's shake it.hehe..
happy holidays in advance DMS students..
it's okay if people say we can study hard but make sure we can party hard.LOL..

2009-03-05T21:58:00.002+08:00

life is so fulled of studying..
morning till now i am still studying..
i am so nerd but it will stop on saturday..
saturday everyone is gonna drop dead drunk..
e party animal ordered so many bottles..
one canon and 5 other bottles..
i better don't talk too much before they aim me..
guys we know who to aim right.haha..
we will aim those who act too much in school.hahaha..
die lar u.is beyond my control,e boys are aiming u..
i can't help u..maybe help u drink some ok..
omg,we are really gonna have fun and crazy night there..
party till e lights off..
let's pray that i will stay good till 5..
boys,i will sit one corner don't come and disturb me alright?.hehe..
party party party people..

2009-03-03T22:50:00.004+08:00

why love is so strange?
one day a person can be so closed to another but e next day they can be a total stranger to each other??
don't you feel scare of falling in love again..
that's e reason i remain like this..
cus lover one day will turn into a stranger..
and i don't want to repeat the same mistake turning a person whom i love the most into a stranger again..
good way to leave happily??
do not hate others but care less about them..
i am sure you will smile when you see those people that ever hurt you:D

2009-03-03T19:31:00.002+08:00

human resource management, u u are shit..
cus of u,i studied so hard!!
in fact i studied too much..
and so many things i studied didn't appear..
WTH u..
cheated my feeling..
lecturer,u are quite a whore to tick so many unnecessary slides..
but actually i managed to do e paper..
only mcqs were so so stupid..
one paper down..
left with 2 to go..
and what will be the time by then??
it's PARTY TIME.hehe..
was damn proud to tell my friends 'is not about passing boys is about scoring'lol..
now i think scoring is a big issue..
then they told me 'is not about doing e paper jen is about how fast u end e paper'lol
we have e same shits..
back to study..
i am gonna burn e papers and drink them..
will that be a faster way to absorb??

my messy green room..

2009-03-02T01:06:00.002+08:00

even my room is as green as me..
this is not a girl's room..
super messy..
exams stress leads to this.hehe..
actually i am just lazy..

2009-03-02T00:31:00.003+08:00

i am not counting my days but it flashes into my mind..
2 months being single..good times + bad times..
i guess soon i will be used to it cus i have many awesome friends around me..
but yes i also need some special care from someone but not those unwanted boys:)
and soon i will forget this date..
and soon i will forget e reason behind this date..
forget forget forget..
i went to church this morning..
i felt good there..
i prayed for all of us whether you have been good or bad to me..
i prayed for people that have appeared in my life whether past or present..
e priest was saying we should never say 'why is it so unfair'?
cus when u say that meaning that u have not come to the home of god..
don't say that i am acting alright..
i am learning to be good..
many good lessons that i learned from it..
they taught me how to be control my angry..
they taught me how to forgive people that are bad to me..
they taught me how to appreciate others..
and for that guy who disturb me on facebook..
gosh,don't ask me for sex cus i am not a whore..
thank god i went to church this morning otherwise i will teach u a lesson on how to appreciate a woman..
happy birthday gerald:D

2009-03-01T16:49:00.000+08:00

gotham penthouse

2009-03-01T00:04:00.004+08:00

had a short fun with yanto just now..
we went to gotham penthouse to plan for his upcoming bdae..
i promised you and i did it..
i help you to plan you see..
how to find such a nice friend like me to??
we wore too slack that we were hoping that we wouldn't see anyone we know..
i like to hang out with him,mainly cus he understand how i feel..
when i told him i don't feel sad anymore,i don't cry anymore and i am alright to see the reality..
but somehow memories still will come back,e sweet and bitter time we had..
he can feel for me cus he had been through that stage once before..
that's e reason why i often chill with this wild man..
we share many things that i have never told anyone before..
my dark sides,his dark sides..
who i like now and stuffss..
he is my biggest secret box..
actually having many guy friends are much better than having one boyfriend who sometimes gets to serious when you crack a joke..
with friends you will feel comfortable pouring all ur nonsense out like nobody business..
single life is so good most of the time..
i am gonna be a member of gotham frm now on..
i love the band there..
one of the best band that i have ever listened too..
nice place to chill but with certain crowds of cus..
nice and friendly bartenders..
let's call it a party on next saturday..
immediately after exams.haha..
yanto really e best..
my bestest friend for night life.LOL

2009-02-28T00:33:00.003+08:00

sigh..
totally so not productive today..
look,we could even take pictures while we were studying..
shit,om came today to add on to all e great time we have..
fun studying with them but doing well in exams i really hope so..
anw,i finished a few more chapters of marketing today..
gonna continue it after work tmr..
guess what time will i be working lata??
8am..in the morning..
goshhh..hopefully i can wake up..
i am chatting with Topin now..
he told me today is Saturday..
really??
i guess i have been studying too much..
that does not mean that i have no life alright..
at night i will be going down to clarke quay to plan for Yanto's bdae..
i will help u cinta..
don't worry..
i will hire a thai girl for your bdae present.LOL..

my great time

2009-02-27T22:06:00.001+08:00

2009-02-26T23:34:00.000+08:00

new skin..
nice huh??
a refreshment while i was having my revision break..
i studied at novena today..
i had so much fun with all the mad guys..
we laughed from e time we met till the time we left..
i can seriously laugh till i die when i am with them..
my awesome friends kept me occupied with their dirty uncensored jokes..
back to study..
marketing zzzzzzzzzzzzzz..you are killing me..
chang long ,boiboi and e rest we will meet after my exams..

2009-02-26T13:37:00.000+08:00

people is raining out there..
studying makes me feel so dry,so god send some drops of water.haha..
i was talking to my baby sheldon yesterday.lol..
he told me i am too playful..
in some ways i agree..
he said even i have a new boyfriend,i will get bored of the person very soon..
you know me too well baby..
cus of talking nonsense to him yesterday,i couldn't wake boiboi up this morning for his guard duty..
omg,i am sincerely sorry boi..
i tried to wake up but i think i went to sleep again.haha..
at least i woke up at 4 plus for u know..
but didn't call you.LOL..
thank god i didn't make e morning call otherwise you will give e best thing to me which will make me puke.HAHAHA..
i am smart in a way..
off to novena now..

2009-02-24T21:33:00.000+08:00

he doted me since 5 years ago..
and till now,it's still the same..
he is always there for me whenever i am down..
i cried when someone hurt me,he would be there to listen to all the shits..
when my family blamed me for leaving him,he protected me by saying that was his fault..
that's how nice MELVIN MARTIN MUSA can be..
i want to be pampered by him throughout my whole life..
he loves me..
he loves me more than anyone else..
and the most important thing is i have never been replaced by anyone before..
not like other heart that can change and turn to a new easily..
I MISS YOU CINTA..

2009-02-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

back from work..
so early today cus i have my way out.haha..
why my life is so boring nowadays??
study study and study..
i will be good for e next 2 weeks..
after that i will back to my happening life with my crazy friends..
i guess i took too much panadol again..
i finished e whole box within 2 days..
i couldn't help it,e pain nearly killed me..
and i had to endure it during work..
now i feel super sleepy..
i am going to see doctor tmr..

2009-02-20T02:23:00.000+08:00

interesting chat with frederick..
he is a nice guy who loves my perm hair.weirdo..
sigh,another same case whereby they try to hold on to e relationship but they are not happy..
why??why??
i am not happy at all to see things like quarrels and break-ups..
cheer up,hold on tight to it don't let go..
e key word is appreciate e other party..
look at her/his good points..
forget all e bad memories..
and be happy together..
and don't look at other girls.haha..
and don't flirt with me.lol..

2009-02-19T00:07:00.001+08:00

exams please faster go away..
i am like totally a little geek and nerd cus of exams..
next events after exams are yanto's b'dae at sabai sabai i guess and am's bdae at sentosa and cafe delmar' ..
get to party and party..
i felt that i have been stalked by someone,was talking about it to sheldon just now..
2 days,he followed me from behind,i am not scared but i am irritated..
i will kick you if you follow me again..
i am gonna sleep..
study wasn't effective..
good night people..
lovelove

2009-02-18T22:04:00.000+08:00

i don't know why blog has been my best hang out place nowadays..
my girls have been too busy with their own lives..
we have never met since a long time..
see,not that i don't like hanging out with e girls alright,for those ppl who wonder why am i always out with e guys..
i am tired of school and work as usual..
i can't effort to think of any other things..
this interesting lines..
i think is quite true and it sounds realistic..

When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.
DO I??
i am too afraid to open it and close it with separation again..
maybe i am not that strong after all..

2009-02-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

i am so tired..
just came back from work..
have been at city hall these few days..
i promise my boss i will not get anymore complaint and if yes i will resign..
i studied a few chapters of human resource at work..
i think is hard for me,now i think managerial accounting is much more easier..
i sat at j-co alone,looking at my notes and drank tea..
i felt that i have grown up..
somehow i can be independent now..
anw,i am super troubled..
someone help me decide..
should i stop at diploma and be air-stewardess??
should i continue my degree at RMIT?
or should i go to University of London?
i want to go to that school of london..
but do i have the capability to be there and last there??
not about graduating,everyone will of course graduates one day..
but graduate with your first class of honour..
can you imagine how people will look at you when you have that??
actually not only e image wise,i am thinking of the pay wise..
although i am not that smart yet to be in that category but i believe somehow i can do it..
but my family members doubt that i can actually strive in it.sigh..
how???
i am afraid i cannot be one of the best too..
there goes e nagging from them..
london,why are you so scary??
and expensive.haha..
i will decide real soon..
econs and finance= stalk experts
mathematics and finance= teacher or lecturer..
which one will suit me better??
give suggestions please??

2009-02-16T18:52:00.000+08:00

pictures of us

2009-02-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

2009-02-15T22:38:00.001+08:00

went to double o yesterday..
wasn't that fun cus i had no mood out of sudden..
i didn't really dance as much as usual..
but the funny part was i helped the waiters to clean the bar.lol..
i kept cleaning the table using tissue..
they must be thinking this mad girl why keep cleaning and wasting our tissue.hahaha..
another new stunt that i did.haha..
i kept slapping hueiwei for no reason..
thank god he didn't get angry..

2009-02-14T16:04:00.001+08:00

i was too bored and i wrote a note of 25 randoms things that happened in my life on facebook..

1.when i was in k2,i was cheated by my teacher to dress as a boy and let e girl sat on me..shit you teacher.don't let me see you again..i tell my mum.hahaha..

2.primary was my fighting period.i was a big bully..i loved to fight with boys till e parents came and look for me and i had to hide somewhere cus i was scared.lol

3.i often fell down for no reason even the ground was full flat,somehow will trip and tada..on the floor..few times ended in e drains..i hated that..painful and smelly..

4.my stupid maid poured hot water on my leg..one moment i thought i will be living with that ugly leg..
mum nearly sacked her..stupid u,pain u know..

5.i got big blue black on my forehead when i was walking without looking at e ppl sleeping on e floor,and guess what...
big big blue black..that was when i was young..i fell down easily but not anymore,sometimes only..

6.i have a nice cousin who always dote on me..

7.i am scared of dogs cus i got bitten before,i will bite them back on day to let my fear goes off..

8.i joined chinese dance in sec schl cus i entered e wrong one and quit after 2 days of me doing splitting..crazy,i am not that flex..

9.i joined judo instead thought i was tough enough..guess what my coach always said about me??
soft,not fierce,weak legs and hands,and no fighting spirit.haha..
i admit all those are quite true..i always got shocked during competition when they started with a shout,got scared and quite fast later TADA..on e floor..

10.i used to love watching WWF WWE, my sister got mad and off the tv..no sense of fighting u..

11.i used to be in love a guy from my secondary school time till recent..he was nice and i thought he will be the one..but nonono........

12.i love chris brown even though he bullied rihanna.haha..

13.i love to blog,but don't be busybody to read about my life if u are not close to me..

14.i believe in friday e 13th as bad thgs happened to me,i fell from ladder..

15.i will be bimbs when i am with amrita,farhana and farlinah..it comes naturally..

16.i am getting lazy for school and i am afraid of exams..

17.i have phobia for a new man in my life..

18.i love to chill with my indo boys and crap all we can..

19.i want to be an air stewardess after i am done with dms..i am nt sure whether i can but just try..

20.i hate people who can't do anything better in their lives but make complaint complaint..

21.i can't tolerate unfaithfulness,if u are please go away..

22.i play childish games when i am bored like dressing up,cake mania,wedding dash..and many more...

23.i hate working cus i always get complaints..

24.i don't eat beef and mutton cus they smell milky,vann said i ate pregnant beef.LOL..

25.i am happy right now..single life is GOOD..many friends want to be single when their relationships get too long.boring,tied down and no freedom..report here report there..quarrel her quarrel there..so sick...CHILL...

2009-02-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

nice picture..

he wasn't touching me..

friday,the 13th------>bad luck for me..

2009-02-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

today wasn't my day at all..
i received the best damn valentine's gift ever at work..
i am almost got dismissed from work..
but wasn't sad about it..
i was hoping i really will..
cus i am super not comfortable with the working environment..
i have never come across a workplace with many many backstabbers in my entire life..
started form tangs,that's hell..
tangs is the only workplace that i will not fool around..
but i will still get complaint..
and e complaint is from one freaking busybody who loves to suck up to e supervisor...
get ur own life man,bitch..
i moved a little when i listened to music she went to complaint..
u have nothing better to do in life,whore?
then be a whore..
today raffles city was my biggest mistake..
total embarrassment when you got caught for slacking.omg..
i was called to e office as if i am a secondary schl kid..
many people looked at me and my 2 other friends..
i received nothing but warning letter..
i rather be dismissed since i am working with so many complaints..
i hate my workplace..
i told my boss e truth but why he didn't let me go..
i want to go,i want to leave..
look, i am not a person who can cover all e shit that i have done..
unlike e full-timers who always can find their ways out when they MIA for long..
i am always e unlucky ones who often get caught for it.shit..
anw,that wasn't enough..
in addition to my sufferings,i fell from the ladder when i tried to take my stock..
better still,after falling from the top e customer didn't even buy..
got bruises everywhere.holy shit..
but but..
for all the bad things that happened..
i received two good things from my beloved bestest friend Sheldon and my working friend Fredrick..
they are so sweet..
at least they brightened my day with their sweet gifts..
today is valentine's day..
couples out there have a lovely day..
show all your love before it's too late..
before that someone turns away with another person.hahaha..

2009-02-11T22:05:00.000+08:00

hi people..
i am back after a long time..
i had been too busy with many many assignments..
now we are done done done..
no more assignments..
left with the upcoming exams..
i will start my mugging soon..
i guess we did very well for our video presentation today..
e audiences were laughing all the way..
hello, we were acting in it u know..
u think we are clowns huh:D
but thanks for the support,friends..
i will upload it v soon..
e file went missing somehow..
i went for major shopping..
i supposed to accompany amrita to get her stuffs but as usual i am e one doing the shopping..
bought super many things..
i bought a black jacket,a vest, 2 tops and a high waisted skirt..
shit..i didn't know how much i spend..
i am tired looking at those people at town busy preparing stuffs for their gf or bf..
meiqi is one of them..
it's just a v day after all..
girls,go get busy for all ur men..
good if ur guy are good man what if they are not,u get nothing out of it but SHIT..
so girls,chill...don't waste ur time on those things,pamper urself more..
i am happy i don't need to spend on all those anymore:D

2009-02-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

someone can be just f*** up in my life..
and please don't ever appear in my life anymore..
cus i seriously don't wish to see your loser face to appear again..
f*** off if you understand English alright!!!!!

2009-02-06T02:56:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired..
why am i still not sleeping at this time??
cus i have just finished my assignment..
we still have many things to do..
edit edit and edit..
life getting so boring now..
fell sick for e past few days till now..
vomit cough fever all at one time..
what can i do??
we had fun photo taking sessions today..
surya,yanto and rey came out with stupid or brilliant creative idea, i am not sure about that..
we are supposed to create a new product for marketing..
but somehow their product seems unrealistic.haha..
they are creating a dream machine.lol..
guys u think we are living in the doraemon's world??
if that gonna happen in future,can i order in advance??
i will be ur first customer..
but e guys really put all their affords in it..
never see them so hard working before..
i will pray hard for them to get A..
i will upload e pictures soon once i get it..
many many stupid and nice pictures..
except some stupid scenes that they didn't say it before they asked for my help..
but i left with no choice otherwise i will spoil their dreams..unrealistic..
guys no more next time..
good morning ppl..

2009-02-04T10:42:00.000+08:00

shit...
i am having high fever..
my body aching..
e same old sickness occurs again..
all e pain will come together..
fever,cough,vomit, body ache..
but i have to endure all these shits cus i have to go work lata..
boss why are you so cruel..
i feel so weak now know..

2009-02-02T22:47:00.000+08:00

for a moment i thought i lost my ic..
shit..
but no,i left it at my work place yesterday..
i talked to sheldon just now..
sigh,he always makes me realised what i have done wrong..
he said that i have changed a lot..
why am i always drinking and clubbing..
shel,i don't want this type of life too..
i don't know what am i doing seriously..
i need to get back to my normal life,like e nerd me..
but how??
someone got to control me otherwise i will still be like this..
i never even touch my lecture notes before since school started..
last time i used to revise everyday cus there was someone who would remind me to study..
but know i don't even care,good enough i still want to attend my lessons..
one reason is because i am too tired after work but another big reason is because nobody pushes and encourages me..
imagine,7 chapters of managerial accounting has been covered by ng kai teck but i know nothing at all..
how??
i will suffer at e last min..
this time round i can't help my friends anymore..
i will wish my life will get back to normal..
too happening life can be very tiring at times..
i want to study but can someone pushes me to do so??
alright..
i promised sheldon that i will try to get back my past life..
he also said he will quit smoking..
sheldon knows me too well,even though i will pretend to be toughed in front of him,he knows that actually i am not happy right inside me..
that's why he is my best buddy ever ever..
my gfs are so busy now..
where are you girls??
when then can we meet up..
i miss you girls..
i need some girls' talk..
i am bored of sharing my problems with men..

2009-02-01T22:49:00.000+08:00

i went to a new place to work again..
guess where??
raffles city for today..
so near yet so far..
that place is hell man..
so many back stabbers,so many mean aunties..
and one very super irritating supervisor who loves to act big..
keep scolding me for no reason..
mad man..
but thank god among e bad ppl there are still some angels around..
like aunty daisy and fedrick..
e rest are all crazy people do nothing but complaint about others..
again i have to pass by chjimes cus that's e only way for me to go home..
i saw 5 or 4 Ferrari(black,white,orange and yellow) parked outside e church..
wowwwwwwwwww........................
must i always pass by there if i work at city hall..
sigh..

2009-02-01T11:03:00.000+08:00

morning ppl..
wanted to go church today with my friends but i couldn't wake up..
and also i think it wouldn't be nice if yest i went for drink and today i pray for forgiveness..
who did i went with??
who else,of course my wildest friend ever steven(yanto)..
we went to a pub at chjimes..
e place was good,e live band was entertaining..
ppl u can try next time..
i saw edwin bro.sigh..
again same old thing happened..
he asked me to talk things out..
bro,but how?? i don't know what to do..
leave it as what it is,will that be better for us..
i seriously don't know what are you thinking now?? tired..

2009-01-31T00:08:00.000+08:00

i am back to blog again..
i went to dragon's house for visiting today..
was so happy to see his mum,dad and nephew..
but my present seemed to let him feel uncomfortable..
why??
only he knows the answer..
my heart ached a little when his dad told me something..
i feel love there by his mum and dad..
but we have to move on,no more turning back..
everything changes too fast too much..
stop there,put e unhappiness aside..
i went to meet my friend today..
had dinner and movie..
as usual we talked too much.haha..
i don't know why i can have so much stupid jokes and etc..
thanks for making me happy whenever i meet you..
we watched a great show..
wedding games,was alright actually..
but i really love the theme song 'ave maria'..
play for you ppl when i get married ok.hehe..
how i wish my day will always stay this way..
accompany by all the nice people..

short holidays at jakarta..

2009-01-30T00:51:00.000+08:00

1o over years friendships that never end..

time for hard rocking....

my mum..

look at her..so adorable..

strawberries that my niece plucked..

i am blessed to have them with me..

2009-01-23T23:43:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..
i am done with my packing..
ready to fly tmr:D
so excited to see so many relatives after a long time even though i don't like some of them..
i miss my mum..
i am a lousy daughter that don't show my love for her:(
yes yes...
i will enjoy my holidays..
i will collect lots of money back..
but i don't think so i will spend it all there as well..
can't wait to see all my primary schl friends..
let's chill people..
see ya singapore in 5 days time..
hopefully i won't be enjoying myself so much till don't wna come back..
happy new year everyone..
catch up soon people..
bye..

2009-01-23T03:00:00.000+08:00

This is a crazy world
These can be lonely days
It's hard to know who's on your side
Most of the time

Who can you really trust
Who do you really know
Is there anybody out there
Who can make you feel less alone
Sometimes you just can't make it on your own

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
Well I'll always be your friend

When you need some shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

If you have broken dreams
Just lay them all on me
I'll be the one who understands
So take my hand

If there is emptiness
You know I'll do my best
To fill you up with all the love
That I can show someone
I promise you you'll never walk alone

Well if you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
Well I'll always be your friend

When you need a shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for your pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am

Everybody needs somebody who
They can pour their heart and soul into

If you need a place where you can run
If you need a shoulder to cry on
I'll always be your friend

When you need a shelter from the rain
When you need a healer for the pain
I will be there time and time again
When you need someone to love you
Here I am, Here I am

2009-01-23T02:08:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..
i finished my assignment..
good to go..
tmr my off day..
skipping accounting cus need to rush for marketing project..
where should i go after that??
meet my friend?but which one will be better for me to spend with before i go??
actually i have someone in my mind that i want to spend with..
but i think is not possible..
anw, these few days i am surrounded by many many Ryanssss..
wondering why out of sudden pop out so many of them.hahaha..
Ryan1(my best colleague).Ryan2(my senior from sec schl).Ryan3(my schoolmate)..
maybe it's just so coincidence that so many ryanss appear.haha..
one more day to go??
should i go and visit someone before i go??
gals,who will be that person??
even my gfs don't know..
what's in my mind??
what i want in my life now?
who do i need now??
nobody knows,cus i also don't know.lol..
i just want to enjoy my life and stay happy without anymore tears in my day and night..

2009-01-21T23:28:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..
i am so bored now..
but i have a good news..
friday i am off..
there are so much things to prepare before i go..
who should i spend my off day with this time round??
i have contacted all my primary school friends in indo..
we are going to meet..
yes yes..after a few years..
i can see my closest friend on earth finally..
i miss him so much..
i will see all the childish funny faces that have turned into mature good looking men and women..
i will see my puppy childish love too..
and he will see the grown up me..
my five days will be super packed..
i have many many plans..
so excited..
btw i was very pissed with e landlord of e place that i work just now..
how i wish i could punch her right at her freaking face..
i wasn't wearing my puma uniform,not even e shoes..
but i was wearing my friend jacket..
then she said 'lata u must wear ur jacket till checkpoint then u can take out'
i was like whatever lar auntie..
then i think she saw my face expression,like kinda hack caring her.haha..
she asked ' did u hear what i say?i said,then..
she said ' repeat what i said'..
hello auntie, who do you think you are to ask me to repeat what u said...
my beloved mum also never ever ask me to repeat what she says...
don't make me angry i will punch ur face.lol..
don't order me around!!!!!!!
one day i will be the landlord and i will ask u to sweep the floor.zzzzzzzzzzz.........
idiotttttt.LOL...
saving money to get i phone??
u think i will know how to use it??hehe..
maybe...
long time no party..
my friends and i were planning right after i come back we will go..
maybe the street party..
anyone interested???
at cityhall on 31st january..
but some ppl that i don't like,they are going...
to see those ppl eeeeeeuuuuuuuuu..........

off day:D

2009-01-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

why am i still up so late??
i am doing my marketing assignment that is due this saturday..
suddenly my laptop gave me e best gift ever..
hang at e best time when i had fully done my typing..
zzzzzzzzzzzzzz........
yest which was a few hours ago was my off day..
i thought i would spend my off day rotting with noone..
nono...
i seriously can't stand being alone on my off day..
i will feel so devastated as if i am wasting my life u know.lol..
please understand cus this is the only day i am free from all the work..
i met topin for dinner at indo resto..
we headed for a movie 'bedtime stories'
it was a great movie..
finally after a long time..
i had a good laugh and entertain ..
released much of my stress..
before we headed home we went to play bb..
had a good game there..
we talked and we laughed..
e reason why i feel comfortable with him around maybe mainly because we are Indonesians.
i guess we shared a common topic..
not only towards him but to all my indo friends especially yanto(steven) the rubbish king..
topin thought me many many new indonesian words that i have never come across in my whole life..
i feel so useless..
but now i am better citizen yes...
somehow e indonesian incline fever is in me now..
i want to be like them,i want to speak fluent and without any slank indo language..
i will be better one day..
e next outing with him probably after CNY..
my off day became so wonderful and meaningful with his jokes and company..
thanks..

2009-01-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..
i am having a bad day today:(
let's talk about what happened yesterday..
yest was work matter that bothered me..
e manager got nothing better to do,complaint about me.asshole..
he said i MIA for many many hours.lol..
only god knew about it..
after work i went to clarke quay.hehe..
but this time round no drinking,no clubbing..
good girl nah??
my friend and i walked around e flea market..
ended up bought a top from there..
headed home at 12..
i controlled myself,no drinking for e night..
cus e next day which is today,i need to company my friends to go church..
gosh..
i went to church with yanto,surya and andreas..
so holy today..
i feel so home..
cus everyone is indonesian there..
i think it's time for me to be a real indonesian again..
i am alright with church but if i have to be one of them...
i have to think ......................
again when i went to work another complaint from e supervisor..
i really don't understand why this people are so mean to me..
i stayed in e store room for a while and e fatso called my boss and complaint..
WHATEVER~~~~~~~
i am seriously v tired of work u know..
i feel like quitting this job cus of my complaints..
so many untrue bad records..
anw,random thoughts of mine..
now it seems that singaporean guys don't attract me anymore..
for e very first time i will listen to my mum advice,be her good daughter ever..
she often told in e past,we are different from them..
no matter how hard you try to bring it together it will never happen..
it's true mum..
finally i understand..
so indonesian only from now on.hahaha..
let e last person that had stepped into my life be e only one and e special one in my heart..
i will never forget about you..
cus u made me feel love once before..

2009-01-16T22:14:00.000+08:00

hi world..
today i went to my major major shopping for CNY..
i am done with it..
got all the stuffs that i wanted to buy..
i am ready for my new year visiting..
i am gonna be a sweet little princess for my mum..
bought many decent dresses..
my mum gonna love me..
maybe she might plan a date for me.lol..
i miss her a lot..
i can't wait to go back on next sat..
i will be away for 5 days..
work again tmr.zzzzzzzzzzzz..........
jakarta i am coming:D

2009-01-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

i am having milo for my dinner now:D
i guess i will lose a lot of weight if i continue to do this..
i was too tired to eat at work,wasn't that hungry too..
but when i reached home,i felt hungry..
so milo is enough for me..
tmr major shopping for chinese new year clothes..
i can't wait..

2009-01-15T00:05:00.000+08:00

back again..
now let's talk about today..
boiboi fetched me after work..
we went to somewhere nearby river valley..
guess where i went??
i went to the colourful bridge,the one that i went on my 17th birthday with someone..
was a nice chatting day with boiboi..
we talked about many things..
mainly all nonsense..
thanks for being there for me:D
i am happy now..
happy with my life now..
no more tears in my day and night..
nobody will know how to appreciate me if i don't start to appreciate myself:D

all the good things in my life

2009-01-14T23:38:00.000+08:00

yest was my off day..
i was damn happy finally i had the chance to rest..
after rushing for my assignment,i went to meet my friend to celebrate his b'dae..
we had no idea where to go..
we decided to go cafe delmar with our funny dressing..
we talked and rested,putting all the stress aside..
we ate dinner at e thai restaurant i always love to eat..
a great day that worth to spend..
happy belated birthday,pin :D

2009-01-13T02:17:00.000+08:00

hi world..
wondering why am i still up till this late??
i have just finished my assignment,i left with the typing part..
i don't think i will do well this time..
it's so hard for me to find time to do it..
i even have to steal some time during work to do it..
i am not gonna work that hard anymore..
i am so tired of work..
after 7 days of working,finally i am off..
never been so tired and no life before..
but not bad i slowly letting it go bit by bit..
not so sad anymore,i have seen the light.haha..
chatted with boiboi before i did my work..
he is still so funny as ever..
going riding soon when he is out..
okay..
now the story begins..
i called arena just now..
i wasn't sure i will get my watch back..
but anw i tried..
OMG...
e girl told me'jenny u are god damn lucky,is here'..
someone returned it to them..
godness...i found it back..
i couldn't wait for my work to end..
when i knocked off,i went down straight to arena to get it back..
clarke quay was very quiet..
i went there,i felt scared,my drunk scene.OMG..
anw i got my watch back..
but ya wasn't in a good condition,i will send it for repair lata..
god still gives me a way..
i will always treasure my watch from now on,no more next time..
reason being,it always keeps me accompany even though he is gone..

2009-01-11T23:34:00.000+08:00

hi world..
i am super tired..
spending sometimes on my assignment but didn't get anything out of my head..
let's talk about yest..
i went arena with my girlfriends..
was a damn fun night..
half of the time i didn't really know what i was doing.actually not at all..
till this morning the scene suddenly appeared..
OMG.shit......
i did e best damn thing..
what happened there remained there..
i was super high super drunk super duper mad..
this time round drunk with no tear..
that's good,i must keep it up..
all usual when i woke up blue-black all over me..
i lost many things..
i need my watch,without it i will feel uneasy...
why am i so so stupid..
exactly like what u said.sigh..
i will find my way to get it back..
my whole body is aching now..
so many stupid scenes that happened yest..
but i don't remember them..
i am glad to have my friend with me all the time yest..
i really brought trouble for him yesterday.i am so sry..
my girls took care of me too..
but after that they were too high,so ya..
was a good fun relaxation night..
but not worth me losing my beloved watch..
return it to me plss.............

THE ARENA...

2009-01-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

2009-01-10T01:04:00.000+08:00

hey i am back again..
while doing my assignment i was watching some chinese songs video clips..
why do chinese songs often sound so sad??
although i don't understand..
why do chinese songs often show bitterness of love stories??
but somehow sometimes they look so real like what exactly that happen to ourselves..
so people don't cry when you see your stories are reflected on e video..
cheer up:D:D:D:D

2009-01-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

time to take a break..
finally i got the chance to do my assignment..
not fully done of course but at least part of it..
like that i can chill peacefully tmr..
sunday will be another day for me to rush..
of course i still have 2 days before the due date but as usual e cruel man asked me to work again thus i have not enough time to do my assignment.zzzz..
work was super slacked today..
i behaved as if i was e in-charge for the day.haha..
know why??cus in-charge is my stupid lame friend..
he allowed me to go home early to rush my work..
good to have such a friend.haha..
best working partner.lol..
alright..
i shall have a good fun night tmr..
release all my stress and unhappiness..
drink drank but not drunk..hopefully..
good night people..
back to my assignment:(

2009-01-08T23:00:00.000+08:00

i am getting very very tired these days..
i cannot take anymore..
this week i have to work 6 days in a row...
i am just a part-timer you know??
could you treat me like this??
i am too tired till often fall asleep in class..
i have so many individual assignments to deal with.sigh..
today lecture was mad,we have a crazy lecturer that will jump around the class..
but still i am too tired even her craziness couldn't keep me awake today..
work was crapped though i knew quite a number of ppl but wasn't fun at all maybe i am more worried abt my personal stuffs..
study,love and work???
omg so many things to think about..
i feel like giving up,i need a good rest..
but how??
do i look indecent?
today this guy came up to me and say hi..
but the first thing that he asked me make me feel i am very wild..
where do you usually party????
wth u....
i am decent,i will only party when i am down okay!!!
just like this saturday.haha..maybe or confirm we are going to chill??
i deserve a good rest..so................
wood brightened my day..
he went down to visit me..
but no more slacking session..
today is his dog's birthday..
he nearly forgot about it..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOCCA:D
may you keep ur owner company till you are old.LOL..
mama text me,i felt bad cus whenever the two of us face a problem,she will be involved and she will be very sad for us..
omg,i am really sincerely want to apologize to her that we often let her down..
sigh..
too many things happened just like that..
miss her.miss her cooking for me before i go to work..
I LOVE YOU aunty:) i miss you a lot..

2009-01-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

boring!!!!!!
work sucksssss...
I WANT TO HAVE MY OWN TIME!!!!!!
today was another slacking day..
omg,tmr i will be at e other place..
what will happen to me??
i hope no more nonsense at e other side..
i am very sad for my slacking buddy..
today will be his last day:(
got sacked without warning.wth,ur company!!sucks..
sacked such a good staff like you will be their lost.haha..
actually not at all lar huh..
they must be clapping in their hearts,finally this slacker got sacked..
okok.you're not sacked,they have too many manpowers that sounds better..
i am sad for myself,who will slack with me when u are not around..
die lar,i better bring pillow to work,go sleep all the way.hahaha..
was pissed with this busybody woman from robinsons..
i think she is jealous of me,cus i slack too much and she has to stand there whole day,whole life.LOL..TOO BAD!!!
Monica sis,i guess that's a better way for me to address her saved my life today from e irritating unknown ppl there..
she told e guy.yes yes jenny got a boyfriend that is already 10 over yrs long..
wow,that means at 10 i already started dating a guy??hahaha..
but that's good,prevent me from that pervert guy..
actually staffs at robinsons treat me quite nice so far know??
they help me fold clothes when i am away for a few hours.lol..
they cover me up when e managers looking for me.haha..
they are quite good except those women going to be aunty!!!!haha..
that was how i spent my day..
good night ppl that i love:D
tmr is another hell day,sigh..

2009-01-06T22:49:00.000+08:00

i am so so so so tired ppl..
i have not much energy left now..
reached home,showered and now i am blogging..
this morning was my first HR lesson..
omg,super freaking dry exactly like MPO...
nothing much that happened in school..
i went straight to work with Woody..
what a life right??
i have to work after school..
hopefully my beloved friends don't leave me out from all the happening events..
pls don't babes..
had lunch before we headed to e hell centrepoint..
we were late for a few minutes..
we had been very hardworking today,right slacker??hahaha..
e place like a dead city..
everyone who works there,no matter how hard working the person is,i am v sure that person will be bored tired just like me..
i didn't know how i did spend my working hours today..
after we punched our card,we went to buy drink.
sat down at mac for about 15 to 20 minutes,then we went up..
headed to our individual counter..
and i started folding my stupid clothes.haha..
i was too tired,i went to sleep for a while by then was almost 5..
omg,slacking time..
we went to play bb at e arcade..
i won him,a little bit lousy him..
headed for dinner and back to work..
my irritating lips was bleeding again and again caused me couldn't have a proper meal..
each time i try to eat something big,e skin will tear and bleed again.zzzzz...
pls don't leave any scar on it..
we again went missing for an hour to pass e time before we finally went home..
he and his funny dreams to be a star.lol..
i will pray hard for you to be e real star.hahaha..
see how occupied my day was..
at least by doing this i won't keep thinking of things that will make me feel sad..
sometimes our brain and fingers just don't connect..
my mind was thinking of that person,in my heart i already told myself don't send wrong msg again!but look what my stupid fingers did..

sigh..
how i wish when i blink my eyes,this could just turn into a nightmare..
at least when i wake up all the bad memories will remain in my dreams..
but how sad,this is reality..
it has been many days..
and we will always remain like this till nowhere..
are we??
will you really wait for me??
will you hurt me again in the end??
will i be in your heart always?
i guess one day i will be replaced..
good night:)

2009-01-05T23:37:00.000+08:00

hi world..
finally i have a new blog..
omg.i am being so smart again,created my own blog.hehehe..
i deleted my old blog cus i think whatever happened in 2008,should remain there..
a new year a new blog..
good beginning..
nobody knows i have a blog..
rather simple actually,as we grow up we can't afford to be too fanciful right..
no tagboard as well,my girlfriends will know why.haha..
i want this blog to be privately viewed by those who care and love me..
wanted to buy a diary this year to keep all my little secrets in there but i guess i will only write on it for the first week.hahaha..
was late for class today..
when i reached there i heard unwanted irritating morning voice..
oh gosh,NG KAI TECK again!!!!!!
die lar,i must study on my own again..
i guess for this period of time,my time is dedicated for school and work,and i left with not much time in e week..
work for 5 or 4 days after school.gosh..
tell me i can do it,friend..
i can do it..
no more dependent life for me..
cus noone to depend on.haha..
i will manage my time somehow..

wondering why my heart feels so empty??
keeping myself occupied the whole day..
to avoid my stupid eyes from watering again..
tear no more!!!!!
i guess that's the best for all that happened..
i won't blame you for whatever that had happened..
all i need you to do is to take a good care of urself and keep in touch with me..
i want the best for you..
u might never read this post..
i really love you but i am too scared to get hurt again...